Help me find my meaning, because I have lost it a 1000 times

I've wept so many tears, it's starting to piss me off

please lord break me forever, so it wont ever hurt again

disappointment I distaste you, but you lick me in all the right places

leading life in this old machine, rudely awoken by mistakes

unsatisfied smiles ordered by my unrealistic mind 

these uncivilized thoughts threatening war

at least it takes me away from home, away from the picture frames

away from any commitments I've learned to let go

I hate it, I hate you, I just hate

YA